Me d’ review petitioner

                                                                                    

A peek-a-boo game when youngster,

also play of police chasing gangster

Do fun, pass a decapitation order,

behead d’ cock, cook it for dinner

Now, at this age,

 self proclaimed judgment uttered,

me to be hanged till death, for sure

A rope arranged, also a platform,

ceiling fan anchor point, to fasten

Impulse flashed instantly, vanished,

desire to kill self grisly, perished

Sparked off a resolve to struggle,

not to douse life, a priceless opal

Filed appeal to self, to reconsider,

me d’ judge, me review petitioner

In last few weeks, I did discover,

chest turning wide, bulky, heavier

Scrutiny of body parts told a tale,

I perceived, I’m no more, a male

Male by birth, I steadily grew up

puberty approached, I’m in shock

identity altered, ample confusion,

about masculine feminine equation

Purely perplexed, tricky to answer,

I’m male, female or transgender!

I do possess an amalgamated body,

do not find in me, a genuine lady,

Couldn’t sync with rest of d’ world,

from d’ society getting detached

No gent, even no lady all together,

I’m only a deplorable transgender

Now I’m just myself, nothing more,

try to reshape, remodel my behavior

Adapt new associates, friend circle

at par body contour, shape, figure

Neither male nor female herds I fit,

a lot more, I ought to do about it

Though not naturally born female,

I sincerely desire not to be a male

My occult maleness kept concealed

 impress, as my body contour reveal

No more male, neither full female,

gender oblivion dragged me to hell

Deplorable, I’m a blended creature,

crucified, cursed to be transgender

Scared of harassment discrimination,

want a decent living, no depression

An abrupt turn in life, all in bizarre,

self esteem gone low, I’m in despair

Employers refuse to hire, no reason,

no job, no promotion in occupation

People fear or hate, don’t understand

Drowned in d’ dark, where do I stand!

Generated an idea of self destruction

soul killing a smooth way, only option

To end d’ life, ways not appear distinct,

Hanging d’ easiest path, to get extinct

But why d’ despondency, why to die

if me d’ judge, also a review I can try

 A judge can’t imagine to create a life,

to extinguish it, obviously has no right

Yet make an appeal, must reconsider,

be kind to me, me d’ review petitioner