Truly trying to retain

A warrior, with no troop

standing aloof, all alone

A  deserted chameleon,

my days, over and gone

Ever on a frantic search,

to gain much more things

possess items in surplus,

yet my desires unending

A stream in vast desert,

with dwindling identity

futile all my attempts,

fully unwanted activity

No values left in me,

evidently a dirty soul

An undesired demon,

among d’ cute angles

An evaporating aroma,

in thin air, to disappear

receding wave in ocean,

no more appear in shore

I’m ignored, forgotten,

no one really bothered

lost in d' list of names,

I am trying to discover

Avoided as if unknown,

in streets, on d’ roads

trying to locate myself,

in files, on the boards

Life has truly taken,

an absurd ugly turn

my face now unseen,

unfamiliar, unknown

Saw d’ image in mirror,

read myself, to d’ core

stunned, whom do I see,

I am the same no more

Gone wild, might explode,

outside or at work place

a bruised snake with hiss,

spew venom on any face

Badly battered zones,

evidently I wish to hide

truly a mystique soul ,

in heart anguish buried

My dictates, of no value

now no heed being paid

can lash out at any one,

if attempts to go ahead

My identity goes vague,

 it tends to disappear

it must not turn hazy,

sincerely wish to ensure

May call a frowned fox,

mockeries I can’t bear

my soul screams loud,

mind a smashed mirror

Like a crumpled paper,

being tossed into drain

it’s my erased identity,

truly trying to retain