Why it’s me?

  it's me?

                                        

                             

In solitude, they ask

to themselves, often shout

a tiny or tremendous task,

try to ferret it out

Why me,

do I deserve this,

a penalty for my deeds?

for a feat of willful wrongdoing

of the past,

for some unconscious act

till I'm extinct going to last?

or a God imposed penance,

the real fact

every single sufferer

implores to himself and react

 

Smoking caused lung cancer?

or an inordinate delay,

to see a doctor

ignored d' breast lump,

to end up in a cancer

A postponed checkup,

dither of private part unveiling,

or unclean sex partner caused,

cervical cancer mushrooming

Appetite faded,

well being withered

for a habitual alcohol intake,

triggered cancer in d' stomach

spew out blood, life at stake

If consumption of

leafy vegetables grown,

by factory effluent irrigation

if stress and strain of life,

awarded this dirty donation

or just an ill fate,

sense guilt, brewing in anger

if wouldn't have happened

not faced an exact situation

wish to find an answer

Plans failing,

headways at standstill

body and soul bruised

can't help it, feel feeble,

things beyond control

Shrouded progress,

guilt, an unrewarding emotion

submerged in distress

stalled all pick up options

Anxious, depressed,

can't focus, turn desperate

hopes melting,

stamina draining out,

realized it late

 

Mom of d' girl kid ponders,

allowed junk food to her,

the real blunder

or d' wine she gulped,

while carrying caused

leukemia of her daughter

or pollution of environs

or water contamination

unable to find out d' reason

 I'm so often told,

if a sore nonhealing,

altered habits of bowel/ bladder

an unusual discharge/ bleeding,

a lump, growing at any site

trouble in swallowing

a mole/ wart briskly changing

a hoarseness/a nagging cough

assume d' situation grim

 So need no counseling,

no customary follow up

to alleviate stigma and stress

posses bravery enough

Cancer not d' end of things,

doesn't mean only death

can't make the life doomed

an aspire to thrive eventuates

Aware of d' entire cancer saga,

filled with fighting spirit

yet I'm an awful victim

unable to prevent it 

Today I'm the sufferer,

tormented to d' extreme

agony for no apparent reason,

unclear, why it is me?

it's me?